Which field should i work in

Thinking deeply in frustration

Once a step is taken

I can only continue and not turn back

Yet my mind can't decide

For i can work on the one i hate

but i cant work on the one i love

Alas the one i hate is hard but promising

and the one i love is fun but risky

Yet the decision was not mine alone

And i can only sigh and frown

I will remember this day

12th march of 2009

The day that completely change my life

Although straight A's is last thing in my mind

It came true like what others said

I can only say thank you

To all that has help me through

Clouds frown and tunder roars

Signified events along my road

Lightning flashes and clouds begin crying

As i sat down here feel like dying

Rain falls flows down the drain

Like my effort done without repay

Water flooded the land we stay

As i sunk myself in deep despair

Flood retreat and we cheer hooray

But yet my life will never be spared

A land full with men

Who have used thousands of swords

Divided into two

Believing which they though is right

Essence of life is spilled

Forming a vast scarlet pool

A pool swimming by the deceased

Leaving behind pain and tears

One will stand with triumph

Only to see the truth

Victory was traded with lost

Of love one i suppose

Winning was for senile

In war,none would end with smile

I thank god she was given to me

She will do her best to protect me

Sacrificing herself only for me

To feed ,shelter and care for me

Yet others don't love her as much as me

For benefit alone they would cut down tree

Not even a hare they would let it free

Clean water and air was only made believe

Even my kind was dead on new year eve

I wish the others was more like me

Knowing what she had done for thee

You won't be clever
If others are not stupid

You wont be tall
If others are not short

You won't be kind
If others are not cruel

You won't be generous
If others are not stingy

You will be weird
If others are not weird

You wont know
If others are hurt

You must not say
To others what are not supposed

In the vast darkness i wonder

A glimpse of light caught my eye

Alas, insight but it can't be mine

Into a deeper hole i fell with fear and sorrow

Yet it was not it which make it worse

The only to blame was me alone

But today i will retry

I will stand with joy and pride

For gaining the light that is mine

Tears gather at my eye

As i reach the place where i called home

To see different faces from before

I know then things can never be the same

For people live and grow and die

People came and played and gone

Nostalgic as it seems now that i'm back at home

I swear that our friendship will never be gone

As tears rolled down now that you have gone

Everyday without your hold

I will be waiting,in my sorrow

Everyday without your hold

I will be home,hoping you would call

And i'm all alone, like a sparrow

in a cage i don't belong

I can't escape the cage of pain and lost

All along,you didn't know

Everyday i will know

You'll be there ,to ease my sorrow

I can feel,but i can't see

Coz' you are there but you are not

In the pool of red i cried

for the spring that will never arrive

For in my sight everything was pure and white

In my heart was only fear and fright

The winter i have experience i was never satisfied

Too little i am afraid i can only sigh

Alas my family was not insight

I can only hope they will never cry