Laughing at others ended up laughing at ownself

When i boarded the bus back to my hometown, I started recalling a piece of my memory which i find rather amusing at that time- it about my cousin working in Hong Kong meeting his dad in a long time. I can't find myself to understand the picture of their face- with laughter, exhilaration as if something valuable that was lost for a long time was finally found. As i kept thinking along the way back, i was thinking, isn't it the same i was expecting to be able to once again see my family, the excitement and joy was overwhelming it was about to burst. I found it was a folly that i would laugh at my cousins and his dad reaction back then and doing it the same now. It is because i had finally taste the bitterness of apart even for a little bit that i am able to understand what seems to be comical back then to have such depth of a event. Hence, I finally understand not to assume something to be trivial just because you do not understand what is behind the riddle and I was laughing myself for being so ignorant back then.

The things I never knew i had

I have never knew how great it is to have company around me nor have i ever appreciate the time i have with my family or be it just lazily lying on my bed. Starting out living alone it hard. With no friends, no company, no one that will always be there for you make you feel like u are walking in the abyss of darkness. Here I am right now staring at my empty room, roughly furnish, with pillow that felt so allien, window views that are like a stranger. However, all i had was my compaq and internet to keep the distance that seems so vast felt as if still within my grasp and a little keepsake taken from home that i cling dearly more precious diamonds. I never knew it was this hard. Have i known i would miss out so much in my life. I would haf used my time differently, be more compassionate with the meagre amount of life i had left back to so that i would love and felt love more.